things haven't been going verry well. my computer crashed completely and i lost my whole hard drive for good. i literally have nothing left. nothing i've written. none of my music. no records. no nothing. . i was had a few things i was planning on submitting but they're gone now... but i wont be submitting anything forever. boo hoo. its really quite sad. i had lots of memories locked up in there, though i guess that sounds rele stupid since its a mechanical devise -but id kept tons of stuff on it -thats the reason it crashed. i loaded up too much space.-but it is still quite dissappointing. and yet,maybe its better not to have things surrounding me that remind me of the past. everything i know and everything that defines me has changed over time. i should start to look forward since i tend to dwell on everything that wont make a difference in the end. besides, everything is perfect the way it is, no matter how bad things may seem. right?